I have to say, before I begin, I'm pretty impressed with myself for keeping this up. I know it has been in spits and spats, but I'm still going. I'm rubbish at sticking to anything, heck I started taking vitamins a couple of weeks ago as people were telling me that I will make myself ill, and even though I have them on the middle of the dining room table where I can see them millions of times a day, I still don't take them. I can be absolutely rubbish at times. I think I'll take one now, (all things considered I should take about 5, but it says one a day on the bottle, I don't mess with printed instructions). Well I'm back, I compromised and took 2.
Anyway, and to the question in hand, what am I craving right now, well I've just had a milkybar so I really do not want any food now at all. I know what I really really want though, a tummy tuck, I've been looking into it all morning, I've chosen a surgeon, now all I need to do is speak to dad about using some of my saves. Doing this would make me really happy, I know it's only skin, but I hate it so much if I thought I would live through I would hack it away myself. I'm an incredibly strong person (both physically and mentally surprisingly) but my stomach makes me weak, it ruins me, it ruins things, all I want to be is happy. Money, fame, glory, and material things are unimportant, I want nothing more than to be happy, so I just need to work up a few ounces of courage and speak to dad. I'll do it now, while I'm feeling strong, my resolve won't last all day.
Over and out, moi
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