Tuesday 17 May 2011
Day 22-A photo that makes you happy
Looking through my photos on facebook theres a few that make me smile. However the one below shows the happiest I have been in ages, was such a great nite, and I really felt accepted. Made many new friends that nite aswel, and I was quite happy to act the baffoon, as you can tell.
Monday 16 May 2011
Day 21-My favourite tv program
Well I have many.....
My favourite trashy programmes are Gok's fashion fix.....I LOVE Gok!!! and Supersize v Superskinny.
In terms of in depth programmes there are loads I just devote lots of my time to....
Supernatural
Vampire Diaries
Sanctuary
Fringe
Eureka
Warehouse 13
Merlin
Primevil
and they are just the ones that are still running, I am constantly on the lookout for a new supernaturally type programme to watch, and have finished many series that have been canned, or just run its course (such as LOST and The 4400)
My favourite trashy programmes are Gok's fashion fix.....I LOVE Gok!!! and Supersize v Superskinny.
In terms of in depth programmes there are loads I just devote lots of my time to....
Supernatural
Vampire Diaries
Sanctuary
Fringe
Eureka
Warehouse 13
Merlin
Primevil
and they are just the ones that are still running, I am constantly on the lookout for a new supernaturally type programme to watch, and have finished many series that have been canned, or just run its course (such as LOST and The 4400)
Day 20-A letter to someone that changed your life
Dear Andrew
Well, what do I say, you totally wasted a massive chunk of my life, and I can't say I remember any part of it fondly. You treated me terribly, hit me, spat at me, stole from me....but I lived through it, and will never make the mistake of trusting someone like you again. I lost all the confidence I ever had because of you, no-one ever ran me down like you did, and it has only been in the last couple of years that I have gained some of that confidence back.
However I now think I am a much stronger person now than I was before, but I shan't thank you for that, it was a lesson no-one should have to learn in that manner.
The only grace I have from you is my dog, u took me to pick her up, granted you threatened to take her when we finally split, but she was my dog, and I wasn't about to let anyone take her away from me.
I really seriously hope that someone hurts you the way that you hurt me, what goes around has to come around, and if it hasn't yet, it most surely will, and I never wish badly upon anybody.
I wish I could erase that time from my mind, I really do, I always try and live by the idea of no regrets, but I truly honestly regret pretty much every moment wasted on you
Emer
Well, what do I say, you totally wasted a massive chunk of my life, and I can't say I remember any part of it fondly. You treated me terribly, hit me, spat at me, stole from me....but I lived through it, and will never make the mistake of trusting someone like you again. I lost all the confidence I ever had because of you, no-one ever ran me down like you did, and it has only been in the last couple of years that I have gained some of that confidence back.
However I now think I am a much stronger person now than I was before, but I shan't thank you for that, it was a lesson no-one should have to learn in that manner.
The only grace I have from you is my dog, u took me to pick her up, granted you threatened to take her when we finally split, but she was my dog, and I wasn't about to let anyone take her away from me.
I really seriously hope that someone hurts you the way that you hurt me, what goes around has to come around, and if it hasn't yet, it most surely will, and I never wish badly upon anybody.
I wish I could erase that time from my mind, I really do, I always try and live by the idea of no regrets, but I truly honestly regret pretty much every moment wasted on you
Emer
Saturday 14 May 2011
Day 19- Whatever takes your fancy
I have a major thing for vintage dresses, I bought one about an hour ago off ebay, I cannot wait for it to arrive....
unfortunately though I cannot post a pic on here as ebay doesnt let u copy pictures :(
I have alot of them now, I havent worn any yet!
unfortunately though I cannot post a pic on here as ebay doesnt let u copy pictures :(
I have alot of them now, I havent worn any yet!
Friday 13 May 2011
Day 18-Share or set a goal
Well considering the crappy time I am having this week, I think I need to set a whole bunch. And loosing that someone special is always, to me anyway, a time to change so lets start a list.
1. Loose some more weight, I still weigh over 10 stone! Not happy about that, so lets say get down to 9 stone 5 by my birthday, thats the 26th Nov, so about 12lbs to lose in 6 months, thats achievable.
2. Learn to walk in heels, silly one I know but I hate having lots of lovely high heels and never being able to walk in them.
3. Sort out all my crap and sell it off, I have so much stuff, I do not need it all, lets try and get this done by September.
4. Get fit, I'm so pathetic, I can barely run a few metre before becomming a wheezy mess.
That'll do for now, I know they arent all goals as such, but they are prompts for me to try and sort my life out somewhat.
1. Loose some more weight, I still weigh over 10 stone! Not happy about that, so lets say get down to 9 stone 5 by my birthday, thats the 26th Nov, so about 12lbs to lose in 6 months, thats achievable.
2. Learn to walk in heels, silly one I know but I hate having lots of lovely high heels and never being able to walk in them.
3. Sort out all my crap and sell it off, I have so much stuff, I do not need it all, lets try and get this done by September.
4. Get fit, I'm so pathetic, I can barely run a few metre before becomming a wheezy mess.
That'll do for now, I know they arent all goals as such, but they are prompts for me to try and sort my life out somewhat.
Thursday 12 May 2011
Day 17-A photo that makes you sad
Wednesday 11 May 2011
I hate me right now
I know your never going to read this, but I just want to say I am so sorry and I wish you were here, genuinely. I needed to write it somewhere
Tuesday 10 May 2011
Day 15- A letter to someone you wish you could meet.
Really not feeling upto this today, but I've missed quite a few days now and I really want to get into the habit of blogging.
To my soulmate.
I really hope that one day I will meet you, I often wonder if I already have and just havent realised it. Maybe I've already had you and lost you, or maybe I just don't know you well enough yet. I hope that you see something as special in me as what I hope I find in you.
I wish you were here already, I really hurt right now, and I wish I had someone special to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be ok, even if it isn't. I feel like I'm crumbling away and I need someone to gather me back up and keep me strong.
I know they say that there is someone out there for all of us, they never say whether we will actually ever meet this person, only that they exist, so I know you are out there.
Please come find me, I need you.
Emer
To my soulmate.
I really hope that one day I will meet you, I often wonder if I already have and just havent realised it. Maybe I've already had you and lost you, or maybe I just don't know you well enough yet. I hope that you see something as special in me as what I hope I find in you.
I wish you were here already, I really hurt right now, and I wish I had someone special to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be ok, even if it isn't. I feel like I'm crumbling away and I need someone to gather me back up and keep me strong.
I know they say that there is someone out there for all of us, they never say whether we will actually ever meet this person, only that they exist, so I know you are out there.
Please come find me, I need you.
Emer
I feel really down today
Things went from bad to worse for me today. Most stuff is on the whole unimportant, but my relationship status all went bad. I have been seeing a guy for two years now, and for the last, probably 8 months, things have been pretty bad and not what they should be. we have barely spoke to, or seen each other in the last month, and today it all came to head. He rang me while I was helping a friend, and despite me saying it wasnt a good time, he carried on and I had to put the phone down. I rang him as soon as I could and as usual we ended up arguing, but decided to meet up and talk things over on wednesday. However I got home to find out that the hour previous he had posted things up on stupid facebook about me, not naming me, but it was soo obvious that it was about me, and changed his status to single. Not only that but his mother decided to write a nasty comment on my wall. I feel really upset about it all, I do not for a minute want people to think its just him thats horrible, we are both to blame, but I kept it largely to myself, and I really didnt want to lose him completely, and he has made it so. The thing that seems to really hurt me the most is, I poured my heart and every feeling and thing I wanted him to know in a long email. I got a four short line email back, I didnt expect that. I feel so sad, and despite everything, I do really miss him....
Sunday 8 May 2011
Saturday 7 May 2011
Just a silly tea illustration.....
Well I guess aside from doing the 50 day challenge I should start posting some more art. This is something I did just to fill out my portfolio a little, I haven't done much in the way of illustration in the past few years, I have just been trying to get through my Graphic Design degree, during which I decided I really don't want2 be a graphic designer but do want to be an illustrator, but must struggle on to the end of my degree. I hate thinking that I made a wrong decision that I can never really rectify. Oh well, life goes on and I'm gonna do my best to get out of it what I want to, and this is my start. Oh and by the way, I do love a cuppa tea.
Day 13- Whatever tickles your fancy
Well I think I will share my teacup collection with you today, I have only just started collecting, I was inspired by a deviantartist link to start collecting and I have bought a couple off carboots in the last few weeks. And here they are......
My very first cup was the middle one, both the cup and saucer are handpainted with dragons, I love dragons so it caught my eye, and it was only £1. The one to the right was my second cup, its slightly smaller, had a blackbird on the cup and a nest with eggs on the saucer, it's norwegian, and was only 50p! And my latest is the twee white and gold one on the left, which is japanese porcelain and cost me the grand total of £1.35 and u can see the design through it if u hold it up to the light. I hope u like them :)
Day 12: We want to see your teeth today... post a self portrait
I hate my teeth, given the chance (and money) I would have my front two sorted they are far to big! Plus they have a stupid white mark which I am sick to death of being asked 'whats that on your teeth'. Anyway, lovely pic below that I took literally minutes ago just for this, so not exactly looking my best, but not my worst... so what the hey :)
Day 11-Share your favourite recipe
I love to cook, I used to hate it, I do panic when cooking for many, I can manage about six, however I doubt I will ever cook a good roast, I'm best at a good curry...
However, my favourite recipe is banana bread, its absolutely gorgeous and I haven't made it for ages! I found it on the lurpack facebook page...
Ingredients
125g of lurpack (I use any butter, marge if I have to)
150g of caster sugar (I use just ordinary granulated)
1tsp vanilla extract
1 egg beaten
2 very ripe bananas mashed
190g self raising flour
60ml of milk
1. Grease and line a 2lb loaf tin. Melt the Lurpak, sugar and vanilla in a saucepan over a medium heat.
2. Remove from heat and add the mashed bananas, mix well.
3. Add the beaten egg then stir in the flour and milk.
4. Pour the mixture into the prepared tin, sprinkle with a tablespoon of demerara sugar for a crunchy topping. You can also add a few slices of banana to bake into the crust.
5. Bake at 170°C/340°F/Gas Mark 3 for 35 minutes, until a skewer comes out clean. Leave to cool and enjoy!
It is soo yummy, I double the ingredients (plus an extra banana) to make a nice big one, and I do bake slices of banana into the crust and just sprinkle with whatever sugar I have. It is lovely on it's own, or extra indulgent with butter on a slice, and after a few days when it isn't as fresh, it is amazing toasted with butter on. ooo im gonna have to make some now...
However, my favourite recipe is banana bread, its absolutely gorgeous and I haven't made it for ages! I found it on the lurpack facebook page...
Ingredients
125g of lurpack (I use any butter, marge if I have to)
150g of caster sugar (I use just ordinary granulated)
1tsp vanilla extract
1 egg beaten
2 very ripe bananas mashed
190g self raising flour
60ml of milk
1. Grease and line a 2lb loaf tin. Melt the Lurpak, sugar and vanilla in a saucepan over a medium heat.
2. Remove from heat and add the mashed bananas, mix well.
3. Add the beaten egg then stir in the flour and milk.
4. Pour the mixture into the prepared tin, sprinkle with a tablespoon of demerara sugar for a crunchy topping. You can also add a few slices of banana to bake into the crust.
5. Bake at 170°C/340°F/Gas Mark 3 for 35 minutes, until a skewer comes out clean. Leave to cool and enjoy!
It is soo yummy, I double the ingredients (plus an extra banana) to make a nice big one, and I do bake slices of banana into the crust and just sprinkle with whatever sugar I have. It is lovely on it's own, or extra indulgent with butter on a slice, and after a few days when it isn't as fresh, it is amazing toasted with butter on. ooo im gonna have to make some now...
Friday 6 May 2011
Day 10- A letter to someone you hate or caused you alot of pain
Well I'm like a week behind, so for the next few days I will do two a day to get back on track. Had a super busy and slight;y depressing week. Was hoping my degree was pretty much done now, however, the deadline has been moved so got a few more weeks yet, oh well.
Now in terms of someone I hate or has hurt me, I can think of a few.......who to write to.
Well lets begin....
Dear 'someone'
You will never know how much you hurt me, I will never let you see. I did everything you ever wanted me to, even when I felt you longer wanted me around.
You say that I betrayed you, in fact you accused another of betraying you also, yet you seem to have accepted her back into your life as if it was nothing, but I am still here, never given the chance to defend myself, never given the chance to explain myself, never given the chance to make peace.
I feel like I want to confront you, ask you why you feel so strongly against me, but you frighten me immensely, and the thought of you glowering over me while I stutter over my words meekly and try and justify interrupting your day to settle this blows all the courage out of me. I am a strong person now, yet around you I would feel so small.
One day I will pluck up all my reserve and come and speak to you in person, and I hope that we can resolve our issues once and for all, and then I can be at peace.
Regards
Now in terms of someone I hate or has hurt me, I can think of a few.......who to write to.
Well lets begin....
Dear 'someone'
You will never know how much you hurt me, I will never let you see. I did everything you ever wanted me to, even when I felt you longer wanted me around.
You say that I betrayed you, in fact you accused another of betraying you also, yet you seem to have accepted her back into your life as if it was nothing, but I am still here, never given the chance to defend myself, never given the chance to explain myself, never given the chance to make peace.
I feel like I want to confront you, ask you why you feel so strongly against me, but you frighten me immensely, and the thought of you glowering over me while I stutter over my words meekly and try and justify interrupting your day to settle this blows all the courage out of me. I am a strong person now, yet around you I would feel so small.
One day I will pluck up all my reserve and come and speak to you in person, and I hope that we can resolve our issues once and for all, and then I can be at peace.
Regards
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