awww

enough said....

actually, I think this is amazing(I need to stop reading this damn girls blog, its making me all weird). I think I tick alot of this list, and I think everyone who happens across this should take note.

 

I'm sure it's really something to do with me, I want to cry, but my tears are to precious....maybe the book is right, and he just wasn't/isn't that in to me

Day 32 - A photo you took

This....is me. I had fun this weekend at the tutti fruitti festival. It was great to dance to old rock music, try on lots of vintage wear and just generally be silly with my bud. These aren't my sunnies, they were for sale in the vintage shop, and they were silly, so naturally, I had to put them on and be equally silly. Sunnies can hide alot........

Oh, and I follow some girls blog who always writes, or finds beautiful things, and this is what I read today, I love it, and it fits me. I never used to be who I am now, the last few years of my life have changed me so much. So many people have said to me, yeah you look different, but you're still the same person. Not really, yeah, I've always been kind, considerate, friendly and abit daft, but past that, I'm completely different. But alot of things have happened to me in the last few years to change me, Even I wouldn't recognise me now, if old me met new me. I like the new me so much more.

I don't know who's quote this is mind...I may have added a few lines myself

“She’s the type of girl who responds to guys who smile at her because she wants to be friendly. She is the type of girl who stares hard at the board when she does not understand what the teacher is teaching. She is the type of girl who acts like a kid because she misses her childhood. She is the type of girl who rather gets hurt by truths than lies. She is the type of girl who wishes for good things for people she loves. She is the type of girl who will stay loyal to one guy when she learns how to love, and then loves him with every fibre of her being. She is the type of girl who hold on to memories even if it hurts.  She is the type of girl who when takes a fall, stops to look at the clouds for a while but always gets back to her feet. She is the type girl I am.”

today.....

I am going to be fearless, its all I need to be. And myself of course, and no-one is better at doing it than me.

Day 31- whatever tickles your fancy

To me, fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them. It’s fearless to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. Letting go is fearless. Then, moving on and being alright…that’s fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That’s why I write these songs. Because I think love is fearless.
~Taylor Swift

just because, and poss day 30.....see how it goes

Well, I'm feeling odd right now, like the deflated feeling after waiting for something big to happen. Like christmas for instance, which is the biggest day of the year and when its all over it feels like..."was it really all worth it". I feel like that, but it really hasn't been one of those days. I had the best day at the zoo, I mean, I can't say I get particularly excited about doing cutouts, but the silhouette for the "meet the lemurs" was cute to do, I always always no matter what I am doing enjoy my days at the zoo, but the highlight had to be meeting the sealions, it was the most awesome thing I have got to do to date, I did a few training things, and give Anya (I think) it was a good stroke (they feel really weird), and then got an extra special treat which I'm not allowed to say. It was fabulous anyway.

Then mum and dave came round to drop off my dress and talk me through the ins and outs of the salon, as I start work there on tues as marketing/manager/receptionist/kick everyones arse into gear and stop the staff taking the mick person. wow, exhaustive, it's basically a business that really needs someone to go in and turn it around, and I am really logically minded, straightforward and honest which makes me a good candidate, I am the nicest person in the world, but I really don't take crap off people. Plus I'm probably the only one with enough pennies in the bank to stand the poor wage until it actually starts making a profit. To be honest though, money aside, I look forward to the challenge, if I can turn this business around, I can turn any around. Life to me really isn't about money, if I have enough to get by, I'm happy, if I need more, I'll make more some other way, I have always always landed on my feet, and I am very resourceful, so I am confident that I will be fine.

Hmm, day 30, it's write a letter to the friendliest person you knew for one day. I really can't think of anyone, I know loads of friendly people, but generally know them for more than one day. The only person I can think of is the guy who helped me out when I was trying to get back from manchester about 6 weeks ago. I'd bought my ticket online, but nowhere online did it tell me that I could only pick up my ticket from piccadilly, and stopping at a mates just out of manc, victoria was easiest so I was dropped off there. After some rudeness from the ticket lady, I got on a tram to piccadilly, had no idea where I was going (geography is my weakest subject) and some guy helped me, and chatted to me untill I got to my platform, which was really sweet. It's funny as something about him at the time just....I dunno, kinda made me feel like I had met the man of my dreams, there was just something about him you know, kinda like in the movies where people meet someone amazing somewhere random, like that. But when he walked away, he didn't once look back, so, obviously....it was just me. Well I believe that things like that really happen, and when you know love, truly, it tears through every fiber of your being and you just know. I cant say it was love at first sight, ha, it wasn't, but it was something, and at abit of a low point for me, it was enough. So a guess a letter to him would be

Dear Gentleman who helped me that day
Thankyou very much for being kind, and helpful and friendly, you have no idea how much I appreciated it, and just thanks for being there, as that feeling I had for you for that day, restored a little hope and life in someone a little bit broken.
Emer

wow, abit deep for me, where did that come from

just a quickie before bed :)

haha
A quick post as a certain (rather sexy) somebody pointed out that I hadn't blogged for a while, so seeing as today has been a good day, I will share.
Zoo days are always good, thats a given (although dreadfully disappointed that after next week I'm being dropped to once a month as I'm not needed so much, big sad face), but today was extra good as I had a mcdonalds (disgusting I know, but tastes soo good) and then.........I went to watch the final Potter movie.
It was soo good, I thoroughly LOVED it, and will go and watch it again no doubt. I have to admit, I cried, on at least 2 occassions, jumped once or twice, laughed, applauded, oh yes, it had everything!
However, I was not particularly impressed when the guy who served me my cinema tickets told me that my tattoo on my arm was not a dark mark, as only the one cast in the sky is called a dark mark! WRONG they are both dark marks, don't doubt the girl with the tattoo, I know, I've done my research, I'm the big potter geek thank.you.very.much. and I'm a girl, so always right anyway........
Oh and must add, my day ended with an as always, very nice fonecall with a very nice Mr (mentioned twice now see for effect :) ...), so all round happy lady.
Life is good at the moment really, and tomorrow (weather permitting for part) I'm sure is going to be an awesome day also.
TTFN xxx

Day 29: Provide the hex code of my favourite colour

Err no, my favourite colour is red, it actually has a name 'red' and if u really wanna be geeky C-0 M-99 Y-100 K-0. Hex code....pah

Day 28: Favourite places to shop.

Wow, I wrote the title to this ages ago, but got distracted, oooh look a kitty...what??
Ha, no wonder I never get anything done! Anyway, my fav places to shop. I'm not sure I want to do this one today....I may come across as a scumbag, which I'm not really, just savvy. Alright, I do like carbooting, and when I say like, I mean love! ha, I must admit though, I rarely spend money on buying myself things these days, I pick up things that I know will make a killing on ebay so I have pennies to buy the things I want from ebay, like all the pretty corsets I have bought recently. I think I'd make a great business woman, I know how to barter, I know what to buy, and I know how to sell, genius me! :)
Anyway that'll do today, been a few long and probably arduous posts over the last few days so keeping this one short and sweet, like me :)

Wooop Wooop

I did it, (what you ask....see back to the suicide mission post) well not as well as I would have wished, but did it nonetheless. Met up with Jen and we ran round the park with 1 stop (tbh, I think we couldave done the whole way had she not had leg pain), which is approx 2 miles, I then part jogged, part walked to meet my friends at the De'Vere, and hung around for for a few mins (and went for a wee, in the hotel naturally). Then we set off round the De'Vere which is another 3 miles. I may have been jogging so slow that an old man with a stick could have over taken me, but I was still jogging! All the way round with no stops, a few 'ARGGHHHH's and 'get your ass up this hill emma' but I did it. Feel really good, a little wobbly, but really good. I'll soon be doing twice round the De'Vere with no stops, thats my next feat when I have mastered this, oh and speed, I've proven I have stamina, need speed!

Anyway, I feel good, nothings gonna stop me now, might think about doing a marathon in a few years!

Day 27: A talent of yours

Well singing of course, lalalalalalalalalala, voice of an angel me :)
Pffft, my dad confirmed my suspicions when I said the other day "Dad, can I sing?" and his reply was "hmmmm" Ta very much dad, he could've at least humoured me. Oh well, I'd like to think I can sing, even if only a little bit, I think it'd be ace to be a singer, but alas, I guess it's not meant to be.

I can however draw, like properly so you can tell what something is, not like some of this abstract artists who put a coloured line on a canvas and everyone coos round it like they have never seen so much talent all crammed into one piece of  'art'. My tutor pretty much confirmed this crazy idea that this sortof stuff is marvelous when I was trying to defend myself (for a change) and I mentioned that I can draw. The words that followed from her made me want to throw a cup of something hot down her dress. "well, we can all draw" erm no, no we can't. If nothing else that comment made me feel like my talent was worthless...we can all draw, hmmphhh.


Anyway, proof! I can draw in lots of different styles, I was a tattooist a while back, and at that time my drawings were very clean, with harsh lines that took me forever to perfect (I am a perfectionist you see, if the line is wrong I will redo it again and again until just right in those type of drawings, I've loosened up abit now). I still draw like this from time to time when people commission me to draw them tattoos (which reminds me, I have two of which I need to do).

Don't steal please, it's copywrited to me.

Recently I have got into drawing women, they are soo beautiful to draw, and you can have so much fun with them. My favourite is this one, I love fantasy stuff, and I think it's so delicate, I have actually started painting it, which I will post another time. There are flaws, I know, like the hands, and the face isn't brilliant, but I love it all the same.

Long post I'm sorry but I am passionate about drawing, so bear with me.

Over the last few weeks I have started drawing more stylized women, pin up's etc like this power dressing pin up, and my most recent burlesque (taken from a photo)

And finally, I would like to post this, as I am sure I remember rightly (hopes), this is someones favourite, or at least one he likes of mine, so it definately makes it worthy of a place here. It is just a cat illustration that I did when I was doing a disney brief at college :) Cat is making a love spell that smells really good, I coloured it to.

Tomorrows agenda....suicide mission at its finest!

So thats a big fat lie, well part of it, the title suggests something quite exciting, I can assure you, it really isn't, not at all, but I'm excited.

So........I bet you're just dying to know what it is, ha. Doubtful, but anyway, I have just agreed to run round the park tomorrow at 5:30, which is fine......I have to say though, I have already been booked to run round the De'Vere at 6:15, which put together is around 5miles, 2 more than I have only just managed to do without stopping! OH MY GOD! what have I done...

Well the challenge has been set now, so I must do it, and I will feel amazing if I manage it, so I gonna try my damnedest. If I haven't blogged again by tuesday ring the authorites, I may be dead. In fact scratch that, ring Misty, she'll know where to look.

I'm sooo dramatic, I'll prob be just fine, at best, I will do it and be chuffed to bits with myself, and at worst, I'll have to do stop starts round the De'Vere with Pete and Della and just let Misty and myself down, but at least I'll have tried.

Watch this space for updates xx

Oh and btw I have noticed my spelling and grammer seems to be back on form, I'm using capital letters and everything.

ooo, and I've just remembered, I've found my sports bra which will be way more comfortable! I just hope it still fits.

Day 26: My favourite books

Now this one I can actually answer without fumbling round some excuse, as I do read alot, this may be a loooong list, we shall see. I (apparantly shamefully) admit that I am currently reading Paul O'Grady's autobiography, which is wonderfully funny, but then I love him, and I miss Buster, such a shame.

Being the 25 year old child that am, Harry Potter is top of the list (I am sure if you know me, or in fact even heard of me, you will know that I am a mahoosive Potter geek). I'm not sure which is my favourite book, the first had to be amazing, because, well it's the first. But I think the Order of The Phoenix is prob the best for fight scenes, shame the film really didnt live up to the book on that.....they tried, somewhat.

My favourite author is actually Raymond Feist (which reminds me, I think he has a new book out that I don't have). I have read (and own) nearly all of his, and theres alot, they all relate somehow, apart from all being set in the same world, characters appear in one set from others, even if they are hundreds of years later. But then you expect that from wizardry I guess.

And finally I love The Fifth Sorceress by Robert Newcomb, more magicy stuff. It's soo good, and really graphic in places. Its the first one of a trilogy, and all three are amazing, and I'm pretty sure there's a second trilogy that carries on the story but I'm struggling to get them, or at least I was last time I looked.

Well I think thats a pretty comprehensive list, there are more, but must not bore people I guess.
On a side note, I feel dreadfully hungover today, which is all kinds of bizarre seeing as unless someone spiked my 37p bottle of lemonade last nite, I havn't touched a drop of alcohol since friday night. (Maybe all the wines and martinis that I wasn't going to have has caught up with me).

Until the next....goodbye :) x

Oh, and I think this may be a good post to say.....I do believe in dragons....

Day 25: A letter to someone you judged by their first impression

Yes I can count, I didnt like day 24 so decided not to bother, and its my blog, so I can do what I want.

So, todays blog, hmm. This is actually quite hard, and for as long as I can remember I try to give people the benefit of the doubt and not judge them by first impression, I guess I hope that people will be just as forgiving with me, because I know that I am not my best all the time,so neither are others, its only fair to give people a chance.
Well, im barely into this post and already failing miserably.

Oh well, I think I'll leave it there and just admit defeat on this one, I am soo rubbish at times. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

However, I am having the most excellent week, and its not even finished yet, so I can cope with failing on this one :)

Day 23: Share your favourite tune

oooh I have many. I go through phases and I will generally have a couple of songs at one time that I will just play on repeat until I hate it. At the moment its 'Guy what takes his time' and 'Something's got a hold on me' from the burlesque soundtrack, but thats mainly because I can dance sexy(ish) to one, and the other has words which are fitting for me at the moment. However I do have some songs that I always love and always go back to.
I love this,  I just do,

I also love Fishermans Daughter from the Waifs, I get bored of it from time to time and pick another favourite, but I think its my all time fav of theirs. unfortunately I dont think theres a good copy of it on the net :(
Wow, I could list loads, 'Famine' by Xavier Rudd, 'Good Excuse' and 'Zebra' from John Butler Trio.

I also love this, this version only, I find it very touching. (only need to listen till about 2mins 15secs)

Im sure theres many others, but this is the list for now

hello again world

teehee, not been on here for a while, iv not kept up with the 50day challenge, i do fully intend to get back on that.
I am pleased to say that I am well and truly over the looser that obv thought I wasnt worth fighting for, its funny, he always used to tell me he loved me, but words mean nothing unless backed up by actions, so thats all they were, empty words. I just need to get my stuff back, I want my cane, i love it, and he has it, bah humbug.

I am also very pleased to report some big achievements of the last seven days. I graduated today, passed my degree, with honours with a 2:2, couldve done way better had I applied myself and not had a massive fight on my hands trying to prove that I was brilliant, and not just mental, it went unnoticed needless to say. (actually, maybe i am more mental than brilliant, but hey dont piss on my bonfire)
I also ran race for life last thursday, well i jogged it, but ran the whole 5k (a little over 3 miles) without stopping, even drank some water while jogging, and didnt chuck it all down my front, so thats a bonus. I hope my nana is proud
I also weighed myself this morning, dads scales say I weigh abou 9st9lbs so im going down, woop woop.im on my way.

Generally, life is looking up at the moment, i have a date on friday (I know, whitwoo) and feel it deserves a mention as the victim reads my blog, or has read it at least (dear lordy). To be very fair, im suprised hes read this and still likes me, but hey, stranger things have happened at sea. He did say he cant cook....maybe he just wants me for my cookery skills...hmm :)
oh, and i drew a logo for a friend and he likes it, he didnt ask for it, i just saw the mostrosity that one of his friends had done for him and thought, damn i could do better than that, so i did...go me

right i best be off, iv left myself hardly any time to make myself look pretty for tonights celebratory events.
Over and out, love and hugs xxx

ps, spelling, punctuation and grammer has taken the day off today :)